March 30, 2014 § Leave a comment
I said prayers over my children and tucked them into bed as usual this evening. And, as usual, I also snuggled down next to my boy for a few minutes before telling him that I would come back and check on both him and his sister later. Our routine was the same except for the fact that I stayed longer than planned. I don’t recall how our conversation began but we started talking about the dark. Well, I suppose that I should say, “THE dark” because for any child “the dark” is as real and tangible as a slice of bread, or a chair, or any other normal everyday object.
So he told me how he was scared of the dark and how it would creep into his room at night. I told him not to fear, that he was protected by God and that he shouldn’t be scared. He then asked me if God was the dark. No, God is not the dark. God is a good feeling, a feeling that makes you feel safe and protected. He’s all things good, he’s not that scared feeling that you get when you are in the dark.
Earlier on, right after saying prayers we had been talking about his favorite stuffed animal. He had just found it earlier this evening, stuffed into one of his sister’s toy suitcases after not having seen it for over a week. He told me that Doudou (his doll’s toy) had missed him and that he had thought about him while he was locked away in the suitcase. I asked him how he knew that and he said that it was because he had dreamt it. I then asked him if he had dreams. He explained that he had dreamt it in his head, during the day. Those, I explained, were day dreams.
We talked some more and he explained how he would think (and he used this word with great purpose) about monsters in his room when it was dark. I told him that he should tell himself that there is no such thing as monsters and that he should yell out to whatever was making him scared. Yell out that he (the monster) doesn’t exist. Say, “There is no such thing as a monster!” and that the only people in the room are you, your sister, God and perhaps Chima Laval (a Lego character that he likes). He laughed and had a practice run of yelling it out a few times.
We continued to talk and he told me, “You know mama, I think about God all of the time.” He also said that when he is in his room he thinks of monsters but that when he’s in my room, he thinks of God. “Yes mama, God is in your room.” I tried to tell him that God is always with him, in every room of the house. I tried to explain that he has these thoughts of monsters simply because he has a fabulous imagination and that I too, used to be scared of the dark.
Right towards the end of our conversation, after he asked to sleep in my bed, I told him that it wasn’t nice for his baby sister if he were to leave her all alone in his room…”I know…” (I couldn’t help but to smile to myself in the dark. He’s such a sweet big brother) In the end he ended up going to sleep in my bed. I tucked him in and he was so very happy. I kissed him, smiled to myself and walked out to the living room to tell my husband what had happened. As I was recounting the story we both heard our boy say, “There is NO SUCH THING as a MONSTER!!!”. He yelled that out another two times, sneezed two times and then fell asleep.
Love and light,
March 20, 2014 § Leave a comment
My baby girl helped me make a cake today from start to finish. She cracked eggs, poured sugar, flour and oil, mixed in baking powder and vanilla essence and very carefully added chocolate chips as her final touch. I watched her and couldn’t help but be fully aware of how much she’s growing and changing. Her first cake. Ever.
Later on this evening, as I was putting my children to bed, she pulled my face close to hers and gave me a little “face-hug”. Then from out of the blue her little hand started to stroke my face and I was in awe at the fact that I had only given birth to this beautiful little human just a little over two years ago. And here she was, stroking MY face?
Children are a lot of work but the way that they reward you with gifts like the ones above are indeed priceless. How can you put a price on these kind of organic experiences? Never mind, we’re not meant to calculate stuff like that, we’re just meant to be present and enjoy.
Love and light,
December 5, 2013 § Leave a comment
I always knew that he was a lover and not a fighter but this last conversation that we had while driving in the car this evening made me grin.
Out of the blue he told Pierre and I that his little friend Manon didn’t want to be his amoureuse (girlfriend). In fact, she wanted to be Nathan’s amoureuse…and as he reflected on this his mouth twisted up and went to the side. He then said that he didn’t like this fact. On top of that, his other friend Katrine didn’t want to be his amoureuse either. Instead, she wanted to be Karl’s amoureuse. And to top it all off, his other friend Nancy didn’t want to be his amoureuse either, she TOO wanted to be Nathan’s amoureuse.
He then went on to say that if things went on like this (with all the girls flocking to Nathan) that there would be no girls left for the other boys. (Nice reflection my boy!)
But there’s a silver lining. Nathan told all of the girls to “attack” Théo and they didn’t. He then asked them to “attack” him again and still, they didn’t move. In the end their teacher ended up scolding Nathan by putting him in the corner.
“So, in the end you won Théo!”
“Yes, it was MY day that day!” and he said that with the biggest grin on his face.
My boy, I’m so sure that you will have many days that are meant for you and only you. I love you!
Love and light,
November 25, 2013 § Leave a comment
My daughter had her second birthday and we threw her her first birthday party with friends. Because I know that she loves cats so much I decided to go with the cat theme. About five days before the big day I decided that I should probably start doing a bit of research, so I went online to look for some DIY projects that I could incorporate into her party. It didn’t take long before I hit a site (Willowday.com)that offered free printables and which I used as birthday favors, another for balloon decorating ideas (parents.com) as well as food inspiration.
I am really happy with how everything turned out and best of all, I had a great time diving into it and getting creative at home – all alone at about 01:00 in the morning… Yeah, I had to find the time to do the work when I could be alone…
Having said that and done the early morning preparations, I just have to say that I felt so proud watching my girl run around with her friends, give people smiles and hugs, blow out her candles and open her gifts. She just makes my heart swell up with happiness. I simply find it amazing to finally be able to understand what my mother used to tell me all those years ago, when I was a child. “Do you know how much I love you?” No mom. I didn’t know but now, now that I have children of my own, now I do. Now I know that you would have done anything to protect me. Now I know that my existence was attached to your very soul. That one could not exist without the other.
My baby girl. Leaning on the kid sized table, looking so big and so very proud as she blew out her candles. Such character. Such light. These are the moments that make life so much more than what I expected it to be. And after watching all of the tragedy coming out of the horrific natural disaster that recently hit parts of Asia, I can only say, there are so very few things in life that really have meaning and worth, but they are all natural and free.
Love and light,
November 19, 2013 § Leave a comment
November 9, 2013 § Leave a comment
There are a lot of pictures to go through from our summer vacation. So many things were done, so many people were seen again, so many new memories were made. One thing that I really love about France is that they take their vacation time seriously. And why not? Everyone needs time off. It’s insane to think that people are given such little time off in certain countries. It’s rendered people into objects instead of people. We are not robots.
With Thanksgiving around the corner it’s now that time of the year when you can’t help but be thankful for all of the blessings that you have in your life (if you are anyhow connected with North American culture). Thanksgiving- with all of the controversies surrounding the holiday it’s still such a great time of getting together with loved ones and just being happy for what you have. Plain and simple.
Love and light, always
September 16, 2013 § Leave a comment
Has it been that long already? The summer has come and gone and we did so many things that I sometimes forget about parts of it until I’m reminded of the event by a picture. If that’s a complaint then I suppose that I have no complaints :)
This summer was also filled with a lot of work. A lot. I was working hard, with a partner, trying to set up a permanent place for Learn and Play en Anglais. Unfortunately, the end result was that we didn’t realize the amount of time that it would take to get permission to go ahead and set up our physical location. There were security and accessibility checks that had to be done, even if we didn’t technically need to have them done in the first place… Actually, it’s much more complicated than that and there were doors slammed in our faces and people that weren’t the most helpful but, fortunately for us, we learned a lot and all of that knowledge will be put to good use in the future. That’s right. Just because it doesn’t work the first time doesn’t mean that it’s over.
In the meantime I’m going to continue to give classes at a little open school in town and to also give group classes at home. I’m positive about this, I know that things don’t always turn out as planned or happen according to our idea of an ideal schedule. That’s ok. The main thing is that I know, for a fact, that I’m doing something that makes me happy. It’s all positive and it’s all high spirits from here.
Love and light,